don't open this thought

professional bridge burner?
why yes, that would be me
I professionally burn bridges, maybe not for a living but definitely on a day to day basis.

every once in a while i wake up to what feels like lips on my cheek but im always alone. i need you. it used to be everyday now it seems to only be late at night. sometimes i wish for you so hard that i cry. i cry for what we had, for how we'll never have it again and for how im responsible.
i'm done with being proud i want to be vulnerable again. i want to be free again.
im tied down with memories and regrets. im wide awake with feelings i cant shake. my choices have gotten worse, my judgement doesn't exist anymore. i feel more alone in a room full of people than any other time because they always look so alive and i always feel so dead. i dont even know how i really feel anymore. i force it all. i threw away making sense probably the same day i threw you away.

The nights are the worst
knowing you’re so far away
I catch myself wondering;
“Is he thinking of me?”

metaphors are for liars
and i just write fiction
and you were 'a loose cannon'
my days are getting shorter and so are my words
and i've been speaking in fragments for days now.
and i'll be the curse on your boyfriends hips
i'll be waiting a month from now
and he'll crave my touch
and you'll know you can't do it like i do

I like the way your eyes are screaming at me.
we’re silently anxious,
while my heart’s bursting into a song
and I want to sing forever into your mouth.

im running in overdrive to a place far from where you are
and tonight while you danced alien dances in strangers beds, lightning ripped apart my skies.
i feel that im so high that comets are singing my hair and nebula's are resting on my shoulders.

I drove home today for Christmas and almost died. The weather is completely terrible. It's been snowing like crazy lately, and then today it decided to rain. HORRIBLE! So anyways, some idiot cut me off and in an attempt to slow down I started to skid and spin and then I started spinning in circles and ended up in a ditch. Thankfully I didn't flip or anything, but still, scary as hell when you're alone. 
I was not impressed.


So much SNOW! but now most of the streets in the cities are mini-lakes because of all the rain. Hopefully we still get a white Christmas. Fingers are crossed for that one.

I'm now sitting at home in my new robe and jammies! Every year my mom lets us open up one gift on Christmas eve. And that one gift is always pajamas.




Well I'm going to drink eggnog and sing Christmas carols now...ok I'm actually not but MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Your hands are strong and shaking.
I could pretend its because of me,
but your five o'clock shadow is 24 hours old
and you are so disheveled in a beautiful way.
It's not my eyes that pierce you and cause your destruction.
I see you in the black and white and realize I dont need colour.
the contrast and the words; you are my destruction

I’m searching for white lights in blue skies. I need you to show me how to keep my feet on the ground. I’m spinning, spinning, spinning. It’s getting old.

Show me what home looks like.

Related Groups: Word Play

We're stuttering, too busy
looking opposite ways
at the same place.
You make my knees fall to the ground
and I'm jealous of your bed.
I need words and more importantly
I need fingertips that convey a stronger point.

im waitingwaitingwaiting for you to make a move
and shakingshakingshaking for my motives to seem less self absorbed
i just need one more night to tell me i'm fine and i think today is a good day to let go
i've got luck on my side and it can take you wherever i please

I braced myself against you with my father's ring and my mother's necklace hanging between us, a menthol sitting loosely in your right hand. Your tongue was strong, your mouth was warm, and the rest was nothing.

I still think of ways to be more thorough and how to show you that to fight you never have to form a fist or say anything less than what you mean

there are times when things are awkward, when the headache i have is caused by something other than the weather or the noise, and the line between what i should and shouldn't do gets blurry. the pile of clothes in the middle of my bedroom floor gets higher and higher, and i am home less and less, but i let the opportunity i have go without a fight.

we step out of the backseat, and you kiss me on the cheek, holding my hips to keep me stable after i have sat tonight, watching the bottle get emptier by my feet, laughing a little more and never wanting to see you any other way.

I`m a screaming mess of imperfections.
I watched as you tore into me,
tearing holes in me
eventually I just ripped myself apart and gave you the biggest piece.


There are a million things that can make me sing, but I can`t even carry a tune.

1. STARS - IN OUR BEDROOM AFTER THE WAR

This is a fantastic cd. Great for relazing on lazy winter days with hot chocolate and a good book. Stars have a great sound and it really doesn`t matter what kind of mood I`m in, listening to them can always destress me.

2. JIMMY EAT WORLD - CHASE THIS LIGHT

I really could have picked any album by Jimmy Eat World to put for my second choice since I love them all. But there are two songs on this album that I can`t get enough of. The first is Always Be. I can`t even explain what it is that I like so much about it but it makes me feel good when i hear it. The second is the the title track Chase This Light. This song is just really good. I like how it sounds and the lyrics are spectacular.

3. TEGAN AND SARA - SO JEALOUS

I picked this album because it got me through my very first break up, which for any teenager can be truly devestating. I also attribute this album to getting me into I suppose what could be called a more ``indie`` sounding music scene. There are good and bad memories attached to different songs on this album and I can honestly say this album has defined me.

4. SOMETHING CORPORATE - NORTH


There isn`t really a lot for me to write about this album other than I really, really enjoy it. I can, and do, listen to it in its entirety even after so many years of listening to it. I feel like the lyrics of some of the songs are speaking right to me and whatever is going on in my life at the moment.

5. THE HONORARY TITLE - ANYTHING ELSE BUT THE TRUTH


What can I say about The Honorary Title other than I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!!!!!!
It`s ridiculous how much I really enjoy this album. Not too many people I know really enjoy them at all. Everytime I listen to this CD I feel like I should be out on the balcony with a cigarette and drink. I love sitting around doing nothing but listening to this album. It`s just purely fantastic.

There are times when things are awkward, when the headache I have is caused by something other than the weather or the noise. And the line between what I should and shouldn't do gets blurry. The pile of clothes in the middle of my bedroom floor gets higher and higher, and i am home less and less. But i let the opportunity i have go without a fight.

im running in overdrive to a place far from where you are
and tonight while you danced alien dances in strangers beds, lightning ripped apart my skies.
i feel that im so high that comets are singing my hair and nebula's are resting on my shoulders